Humor
To Be Taken Seriously
I have realized - all my efforts in life and trying to connect with the world, I just want to be taken seriously. But I use humor to push being taken seriously away; why would I push what I want away?
I want so badly for my words to carry the weight of one thousand lifetimes; only to distract my victim with the most light hearted and silly gestures.
What will happen if I am taken seriously?
And other thought I have is perhaps being taken seriously means to be vulnerable? Being vulnerable is scary and hard (and honestly getting harder and harder to be every day). Perhaps being funny/witty/humorous is a way to keep the peace, go with the flow, keep your shield up?
I think A LOT of people use humor as a coping/defensive mechanism for whatever heavy stuff they have going on or if they’re really nervous in the moment. I’ve been in situations where people use it to the point that it’s uncomfortable and I always have two thoughts in my head when this happens. 1. Huh this is getting weird how do I get out of this conversation? And 2. Oh no have I ever been the person that laid the humor on too thick and made it weird? (The answer is 100% I must have at some point).